Well, tomorrow will be my last day at Telstra...
...unless something else comes up. I have applied for a job in Dial Before You Dig, and there are some jobs coming up in faults, which I might be interested in. But what I would like to do is go back to Tafe and finish that multimedia course that I left to go work at Telstra.
I just need something to pay the bills between now and then! I'm planning on going to Centrelink, and I'll be doing some DJ'ing work, hopefully still playing at the restaurant and in November... Love For Sale, my awesome covers band has it's first gig... so there should be some $$ there!!!
Y'know, I really don't know if I was made for a 'full-time job'. I just wanna be able to use my gifts and talents and make money of that... not just spend 7 hours of every weekday doing something that's completely irrelevant to all these gifts and talents God has given me. Well, I did get to encourage a consultant yesterday, who wants to get into politics. So I guess that's one way I could use one of my gifts. But you know what I mean...
I dunno. Anyway, g2g. Wanna have time to make some toast before I start.
Love you all,
the gregglesaurus
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Monday, August 07, 2006
Can Queen change a life?
Most of you know, I'm a pretty big Queen freak. So, anyways, I was checking out Brian May's website yesterday, www.brianmay.com, and I saw this link to a part of the website called "Vicki's World". Thought it must've been something to do with his wife... but wait, his wife's name is Anita... it's Geoff Bullock's wife who is called Victoria, I think. Anyway...
I clicked on the link, and saw a picture of a 12-ish yr old girl with short hair. After a bit more perusal, I discovered it was the biographic site of a young girl named Vicki Moore, who had been diagnosed with cancer. Well, not just cancer, but lots of cancer. In her spine and brain... and yeah... anyway, somehow she discovered Queen's music, and she writes several times in her journal about how she would listen to Queen and that would be her safe place, where she would be able to find peace and forget about her illness and pain and just shut everything out. And she ended up meeting Brian May and he gave her a spot on his website where her journal is now located.
Now, this got me thinking... Queen aren't a Christian band, they didn't play under the anointing of the Holy Spirit, in fact, this afternoon I was listening to Queen and in my spirit, just was not enjoying it... I turned it off and it was like - woah. I don't think God's telling me I'm not allowed to listen to Queen, but sometimes, I think he wants me to listen to music that specifically is anointed by him, or ... well, just Christian music. But, I digress. My point is, if Queen can have that sort of effect... why can't the church?
Sometimes, I think there's more to the spiritual realm than what we Christians see. Is it as cut and dried as God and Satan? Or is there some sort of spiritual element to our basic humanity? If psychics power comes only from satan and demons, then why did Samuel come back up when the Witch of Endor summoned him? I was talking to one of my work friends last week about laying hands on people and healing them and stuff... he's a Catholic and he told me about how at his church one time, the priest came and laid hands on this little girl from their church and she was healed... a lot of pentecostals might question that... but you know, he started talking about Reiki and stuff... new age stuff... and... well, at first I gave my Christian-pat-answer, "that's from the dark side", etc, etc... and it probably is... but deep inside, I honestly wonder about stuff like that... the other stuff... and I wanted to be honest with him. It's just one of those things that I don't want to be afraid to question, I don't want to just give a pat Christian answer that I've been taught and conditioned to say, instead of what I really believe or am not sure of. In everything, I want to be genuine, even if that means admitting doubt - not to the detriment of faith, though. But I don't want to be afraid to question things I don't understand.
Okay, way off topic. So, tonight at music practice, we all had to go round and share our dream. And one of the guys there talked about bringing to the earth a sound from heaven, heaven's music... something like that... not just music that sounds like what's on the radio... and that really struck a chord with me (no pun intended!) and reminded me of what I read on the Brian May website.
How much more, should Christian musicians be able to usher into this earth the sound of heaven... a sound that is not of this earth... a sound that is so different... a sound that changes people's lives... a sound that brings life, that brings healing, that brings people to Jesus! I've heard Ian Fisher from Hillsong Church talk about this sorta thing... and I wanna be a part of that. I want to play music that goes beyond the sense of hearing, even beyond emotions, maybe... music that maybe even touches the spirit of man. Music that God can use to bring healing, freedom to the captives, that speaks his love to people's lives...
I've heard some music that I think does this for me. I dunno if it's just my emotions, or if it's God... maybe it's both. I think God can minister to our emotions through music. But I wanna play music that heals emotions, permanently, that just sets people free inside!!!
Okay, I'm going to bed now. Good night all.
Love,
the gregglesaurus =)
PS Hi to Penny! :D who I'm hoping likes my blog!
I clicked on the link, and saw a picture of a 12-ish yr old girl with short hair. After a bit more perusal, I discovered it was the biographic site of a young girl named Vicki Moore, who had been diagnosed with cancer. Well, not just cancer, but lots of cancer. In her spine and brain... and yeah... anyway, somehow she discovered Queen's music, and she writes several times in her journal about how she would listen to Queen and that would be her safe place, where she would be able to find peace and forget about her illness and pain and just shut everything out. And she ended up meeting Brian May and he gave her a spot on his website where her journal is now located.
Now, this got me thinking... Queen aren't a Christian band, they didn't play under the anointing of the Holy Spirit, in fact, this afternoon I was listening to Queen and in my spirit, just was not enjoying it... I turned it off and it was like - woah. I don't think God's telling me I'm not allowed to listen to Queen, but sometimes, I think he wants me to listen to music that specifically is anointed by him, or ... well, just Christian music. But, I digress. My point is, if Queen can have that sort of effect... why can't the church?
Sometimes, I think there's more to the spiritual realm than what we Christians see. Is it as cut and dried as God and Satan? Or is there some sort of spiritual element to our basic humanity? If psychics power comes only from satan and demons, then why did Samuel come back up when the Witch of Endor summoned him? I was talking to one of my work friends last week about laying hands on people and healing them and stuff... he's a Catholic and he told me about how at his church one time, the priest came and laid hands on this little girl from their church and she was healed... a lot of pentecostals might question that... but you know, he started talking about Reiki and stuff... new age stuff... and... well, at first I gave my Christian-pat-answer, "that's from the dark side", etc, etc... and it probably is... but deep inside, I honestly wonder about stuff like that... the other stuff... and I wanted to be honest with him. It's just one of those things that I don't want to be afraid to question, I don't want to just give a pat Christian answer that I've been taught and conditioned to say, instead of what I really believe or am not sure of. In everything, I want to be genuine, even if that means admitting doubt - not to the detriment of faith, though. But I don't want to be afraid to question things I don't understand.
Okay, way off topic. So, tonight at music practice, we all had to go round and share our dream. And one of the guys there talked about bringing to the earth a sound from heaven, heaven's music... something like that... not just music that sounds like what's on the radio... and that really struck a chord with me (no pun intended!) and reminded me of what I read on the Brian May website.
How much more, should Christian musicians be able to usher into this earth the sound of heaven... a sound that is not of this earth... a sound that is so different... a sound that changes people's lives... a sound that brings life, that brings healing, that brings people to Jesus! I've heard Ian Fisher from Hillsong Church talk about this sorta thing... and I wanna be a part of that. I want to play music that goes beyond the sense of hearing, even beyond emotions, maybe... music that maybe even touches the spirit of man. Music that God can use to bring healing, freedom to the captives, that speaks his love to people's lives...
I've heard some music that I think does this for me. I dunno if it's just my emotions, or if it's God... maybe it's both. I think God can minister to our emotions through music. But I wanna play music that heals emotions, permanently, that just sets people free inside!!!
Okay, I'm going to bed now. Good night all.
Love,
the gregglesaurus =)
PS Hi to Penny! :D who I'm hoping likes my blog!
Friday, August 04, 2006
I'm losing my job...
... and I couldn't be happier!!!
I actually went "yesssss" when I got off the phone, finishing the conversation that let me know the 'not positive' news that I was unsuccessful in my application for a full-time job at Telstra.
YAYYYYY!!!
It means I don't have to stay there!!!
It means I can do something that I actually want to do!! Something that I love!!!
What that is, exactly, I don't know yet...
But I knew, in my heart, especially this afternoon, before they called, that it really isn't what I want to be doing. I can't believe I've been there for over a year. I wish I didn't have to go back on Monday. Maybe those dreams of me taking myself to a prison, or going back to school almost 10 years after I finished were sorta about going to a job that I really didn't want to be doing. And yeah, I've had enough. In fact, I really don't know why anyone is there... I don't know ANYONE at Telstra - at least, where I work - who actually really enjoys it or loves their job. Everyone is so freakin' cynical - even the field technicians. And, so, naturally, it doesn't take long for that to rub off on me.
But I was really praying, "God, if you don't want me here..." when all along, my heart is saying ~ or God is saying ~ "Do YOU even want to be here?" And I had to be really honest, no. If they rang me up, and asked me if I REALLY wanted the job, I'd be lying if I didn't say no.
So now, I really really want to do what God wants me to do. I should finish up there sometime in September ~ if I stay to the end, I get a $1,000 bonus. Isn't that nice? But... God, what DO you want me to do? I don't wanna just do whatever, I really have this desire to do what God wants me to do. Whether that's to get another job, go back to tafe or uni, or something completely different...
I actually went "yesssss" when I got off the phone, finishing the conversation that let me know the 'not positive' news that I was unsuccessful in my application for a full-time job at Telstra.
YAYYYYY!!!
It means I don't have to stay there!!!
It means I can do something that I actually want to do!! Something that I love!!!
What that is, exactly, I don't know yet...
But I knew, in my heart, especially this afternoon, before they called, that it really isn't what I want to be doing. I can't believe I've been there for over a year. I wish I didn't have to go back on Monday. Maybe those dreams of me taking myself to a prison, or going back to school almost 10 years after I finished were sorta about going to a job that I really didn't want to be doing. And yeah, I've had enough. In fact, I really don't know why anyone is there... I don't know ANYONE at Telstra - at least, where I work - who actually really enjoys it or loves their job. Everyone is so freakin' cynical - even the field technicians. And, so, naturally, it doesn't take long for that to rub off on me.
But I was really praying, "God, if you don't want me here..." when all along, my heart is saying ~ or God is saying ~ "Do YOU even want to be here?" And I had to be really honest, no. If they rang me up, and asked me if I REALLY wanted the job, I'd be lying if I didn't say no.
So now, I really really want to do what God wants me to do. I should finish up there sometime in September ~ if I stay to the end, I get a $1,000 bonus. Isn't that nice? But... God, what DO you want me to do? I don't wanna just do whatever, I really have this desire to do what God wants me to do. Whether that's to get another job, go back to tafe or uni, or something completely different...
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
New pic
Here's a new pic of me, I can't be bothered to shrink it so it'll fit in as my profile pic. Maybe later. It's me playing at church.
Postin, postin, postin in mah blog...
Hello everyone who reads this. I love you all. :)
Hmm... well, I wanna write in here more often. Who knows, my words might even inspire people.
I've been checking out Bethany Dillon's website a lot lately. I highly recommend it to anyone. Actually... I think I might have even mentioned it in a previous post. Probably. Well, anyway, it's really cool. I love her journals. www.bethanydillon.com. Check it out. Check out her music, too.
Actually... I wonder if Beth Robertson's site has been updated lately...
nope. Beth, if you read this, and I doubt you do, update your site! Post a blog that all your teeny-bopper fans can read and stuff. I've been listening to your album again today. It's quite good. We should collab sometime, seriously.
Gotta still songwrite more. Not feeling so 'pressured' these days, though, which is good. Not feeling really guilty for spending excessive time playing Final Fantasy, which is also good. Feeling a little bit crap afterwards, which is good, because it means I won't spend too much time playing it again, at least not for a few days. :D I have submitted two songs, though, which should hopefully be getting sung in church sometime. One has a very Keith Green/Ben Folds sound to it. But I've got a few other songs kicking around in my heart and head that I need to get out sometime.
Feeling more organised lately, which is good, too. Using my PDA calendar a lot more lately, gives you a good feeling knowing that your day has some sort of planned structure to it, not just random spontaneousness.
Been reading a good book lately, "When God Writes Your Love Story" by Eric and Leslie Ludy. I have noticed that in Christian Dating books there are two different sides/camps. There is the "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" camp, which focusses on values like waiting for the one God has for you, instead of giving yourself away thru temporary romances and stuff... and then there's the "Dateable/Marriable/I Gave Dating a Chance" camp, which encourages dating and getting out there to find the right person, and saying that the idea of waiting on God to just bring someone into your life is silly and sentimental, and that you wouldn't do that with a job, for instance, would you?
Both sides are VERY American. In fact, the whole concept of 'dating' is really a very American thing. Australians don't have 'dates' every freakin weekend. Australians just have boyfriends or girlfriends. But anyway, I digress. I thought I was on the second side, but I'm kinda coming back to the first side now. Really been thinking about it a lot lately, living my life as though she was already in it... because she is real, she exists, she is out there somewhere, and so why not start now, living my life committed to her... in my thoughts, my words... I don't wanna just suddenly change to be this wonderful person when I get married or get a girlfriend... I need to be that person now. Cos I know who I am at the moment ~ it's not who I really want to be. In the way I think about and deal with the opposite sex... I want to live devoted to her.
You may think that's crazy, but it's what I'm gonna go for for now. I think it's cool.
Gotta tell you this crazy story too. I went to visit my brother this afternoon, and get this ~ he was on a bus today, and some CRAZY, FREAKY woman puts this stuff in his hair and now he's got this big bald patch on the back of his head. I am grateful that I have a car, and that I no longer have to rely on public transport. Gosh, you get some feral people on public transport. Isn't it funny how anything with the word 'public' in it seems to be disgusting, but people say you shouldn't do certain things in 'public'. Like 'public toilets'... Okay, so that's not entirely true. But what happened to my brother today is true, and I think it totally takes the biscuit, nay, it is the epitome of public transport ferality. I don't think I shall ever ride a bus again, if I can help it.
Crazy times we live in.
Love and peace,
the gregglesaurus =)
Hmm... well, I wanna write in here more often. Who knows, my words might even inspire people.
I've been checking out Bethany Dillon's website a lot lately. I highly recommend it to anyone. Actually... I think I might have even mentioned it in a previous post. Probably. Well, anyway, it's really cool. I love her journals. www.bethanydillon.com. Check it out. Check out her music, too.
Actually... I wonder if Beth Robertson's site has been updated lately...
nope. Beth, if you read this, and I doubt you do, update your site! Post a blog that all your teeny-bopper fans can read and stuff. I've been listening to your album again today. It's quite good. We should collab sometime, seriously.
Gotta still songwrite more. Not feeling so 'pressured' these days, though, which is good. Not feeling really guilty for spending excessive time playing Final Fantasy, which is also good. Feeling a little bit crap afterwards, which is good, because it means I won't spend too much time playing it again, at least not for a few days. :D I have submitted two songs, though, which should hopefully be getting sung in church sometime. One has a very Keith Green/Ben Folds sound to it. But I've got a few other songs kicking around in my heart and head that I need to get out sometime.
Feeling more organised lately, which is good, too. Using my PDA calendar a lot more lately, gives you a good feeling knowing that your day has some sort of planned structure to it, not just random spontaneousness.
Been reading a good book lately, "When God Writes Your Love Story" by Eric and Leslie Ludy. I have noticed that in Christian Dating books there are two different sides/camps. There is the "I Kissed Dating Goodbye" camp, which focusses on values like waiting for the one God has for you, instead of giving yourself away thru temporary romances and stuff... and then there's the "Dateable/Marriable/I Gave Dating a Chance" camp, which encourages dating and getting out there to find the right person, and saying that the idea of waiting on God to just bring someone into your life is silly and sentimental, and that you wouldn't do that with a job, for instance, would you?
Both sides are VERY American. In fact, the whole concept of 'dating' is really a very American thing. Australians don't have 'dates' every freakin weekend. Australians just have boyfriends or girlfriends. But anyway, I digress. I thought I was on the second side, but I'm kinda coming back to the first side now. Really been thinking about it a lot lately, living my life as though she was already in it... because she is real, she exists, she is out there somewhere, and so why not start now, living my life committed to her... in my thoughts, my words... I don't wanna just suddenly change to be this wonderful person when I get married or get a girlfriend... I need to be that person now. Cos I know who I am at the moment ~ it's not who I really want to be. In the way I think about and deal with the opposite sex... I want to live devoted to her.
You may think that's crazy, but it's what I'm gonna go for for now. I think it's cool.
Gotta tell you this crazy story too. I went to visit my brother this afternoon, and get this ~ he was on a bus today, and some CRAZY, FREAKY woman puts this stuff in his hair and now he's got this big bald patch on the back of his head. I am grateful that I have a car, and that I no longer have to rely on public transport. Gosh, you get some feral people on public transport. Isn't it funny how anything with the word 'public' in it seems to be disgusting, but people say you shouldn't do certain things in 'public'. Like 'public toilets'... Okay, so that's not entirely true. But what happened to my brother today is true, and I think it totally takes the biscuit, nay, it is the epitome of public transport ferality. I don't think I shall ever ride a bus again, if I can help it.
Crazy times we live in.
Love and peace,
the gregglesaurus =)
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